Feeling Like an Epic Failure

December 2, 2011

I was going to post a review today because I haven’t done so in a while, but for some reason I couldn’t write one for the book I recently finished. While I thoroughly enjoyed the book, I feel no desire to write a review for it. In general, my desire to write has dwindled in recent weeks, which is both frustrating and devastating. Fellow writers, you probably have an idea of what I’m talking about. We all go through periods of self-doubt, lack of inspiration, and plain exhaustion. I have plenty of ideas to work with, but every time I choose one and dive in, but lately none of the ideas have panned out in more ways than one. I’ve tried sticking to an idea and just working through the roadblocks to no avail, which is disheartening because I thought that would help.

The good thing is that I know/recognize some of the problems my current work in progress has, and those include pacing, narration, and general plot. I’ve never been much of an outliner, so I think I need to take more time to sit down and plan this idea out more and pay more attention to my world-building. I keep contradicting myself in this new project and then I get all flustered because I’m not sure which route is the best or how I can a future event happen without Contradiction B being true even though Contradiction A is slightly better.
While chatting with some good friends tonight about my funk, I realized that I’m also rushing this. The publishing world is in such an odd place that I feel like I have to write something NOW and get it done and published NOW or else my career is over. Dramatic much? I know this is not true, that the publishing world is not going to close its doors anytime soon, but I can’t help but feel a sense of panic and urgency. I need to stop overthinking everything and just breathe. *cue inspirational song*
Sadly, my inability to write isn’t confined to my storytelling. I haven’t written a song in months–might even be a year–and I’m getting really sick of my “old” ones, haha. Oddly enough, my photography has been going pretty well so far. I recently attended a Panic! at the Disco concert and was able to take photos for my school newspaper and they turned out so great that the editors printed them in the paper. So, yay for that.
Anyway, I’m sorry for the lack of posts, but I do have a few items in store, like some great author interviews and maybe a giveaway or two. I know how much you love giveaways, haha. Who doesn’t? Free books/swag? I’m game for that. 🙂 Thank you, though, for sticking around and hopefully this funk will go away soon. Very, very soon.
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    Kris Summers
    December 2, 2011 at 2:32 pm

    I’m looking forward to reading the author interviews… and what book lover doesn’t like free books and swag? Of course this also means that I’m looking forward to seeing future works by you!

    Good luck with writing and all! 🙂

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    Kelley York
    December 2, 2011 at 4:28 pm

    Hang in there, sweetheart. If you’re having trouble with your current WIP, there’s also nothing wrong with setting it aside and working on something else. Or dabbling out notes and ideas for it as you come to them. Remember–writing is something you LOVE. If it isn’t fun, then what’s the point?

    You’ll get through it. 🙂

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    Sarah Nicolas
    December 5, 2011 at 4:31 am

    Hey DJ! I’m catching up on my blogs from the weekend and I know exactly how you feel! Sometimes it’s so hard to keep the motivation going because we run at full-throttle until we run out of gas and then we have to crawl through the desert for what feels like forever. Just know that we’re here for you for whatever you need! <3

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    December 14, 2011 at 6:35 am

    Here is a video for you 🙂

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