I’m freaked out.
Yup, I just made up a word because I’m an author and authors can bend the English language to their will. Just sayin’…
Anyway, yes, I am freaked out and excited about my book coming out in four months. FOUR months. I have had numerous people tell me how much they’re looking forward to reading Hunted. Hearing/reading those comments make me happier beyond belief, but they also worry me because what if the book doesn’t live up to their excitement? What if they end up hating it? What if they don’t even make it past the first few chapters because it’s that bad.
Then I think, what if they like it?
I have those days where I’m reading through the manuscript and my opinions on it change every other paragraph. If I were wearing a mood ring, the ring would die because of exhaustion. But what good does worrying do? Nothing, that’s what. As I write this, I’m listening to a 2006 video of Stephenie Meyer talking at the National Book Festival and she reminded me that I write for myself. I don’t write for anyone else. The stories, characters, and worlds I create are for me. Me. Me. Me. Sounds selfish, no?
So, I’ve made a list of things I need to remind myself of on a daily basis and I look forward to seeing what you all have to say.
-I’m still growing as a writer, so my writing is never going to be perfect, especially in my debut novel.
-Inevitably, there are going to people who don’t like my writing, books, etc…
-People don’t like Stephenie Meyer’s writing and she’s done quite well. Same goes for other popular authors, like JK Rowling.
-Again, my writing is never going to be perfect.
-I’m not Stephenie Meyer (despite what Leigh thinks). I’m not Maggie Stiefvater. I’m me. No two writers write the same and there’s no point in comparing my writing to those I idolize.
-I’m with an amazing publisher, who believes in me. 🙂
-I won’t ever be able to write about vampires with crystal-like skin that sparkles in the sunlight. Darn. No, really, darn. I actually think that mythology is cool.